Sunday, May 26, 2019

Tootsie Roll Can


Our youngest grandchild showed me some pennies he had in his pocket.  “Are those your pennies?”  He shook his head  no, “I found them.”

“Ah”, I said,” that’s  God’s money!  If the money isn’t yours and you don’t know who it belongs to, we have a special place for that money—the Tootsie Roll Can I keep in the laundry room. That money goes to charity or church because we don’t know whose money it is."  He dutifully put the money in the Tootsie Roll Bank.

What I never told anyone was the back story to “God’s money”.  My mother was a beautician and had lots of coins from tips.  Of course I was taught that taking money out of her wallet was stealing, but what about money she’d just thrown in the bottom of her purse?  I had found a loop-hole!  If I wanted to go to the corner market to buy some candy, I’d just go to Mom’s purse, root around until I found some loose change, or I’d go to  her room to see if some change had fallen out of her purse.  With coins in my hand, off I’d go.

After awhile, my mother caught on and asked me where I was getting the money. 
 “I found it.”  
“Did you find it in my wallet?”  
“No, that would be stealing”
“Where did you find it?”
“On the floor”
“Is that your money”
“No”
“Well, if you found that money, it’s not yours. And if you don’t know who it belongs to, then it is God’s money and you can put it in the offering at Sunday School.”

When I saw my own children following in the footsteps of their loop-hole-finding-mother, I grabbed a bank—a Tootsie Roll can—and declared that we would put “found” money in that.  So, if they left a dollar in their pants when I did laundry, it would go in that can which sits in my laundry room.  

I continue this tradition today.  If I find money on a sidewalk or in a parking lot, it’s God’s money.  If I find it in the washing machine, it’s God’s money.  If I find money in the bottom of my purse or in the car, it’s God’s money.  I am happy to pass that tradition on to my grandchildren.

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Breathe in, Breathe out


My tooth is being pulled today.
So many lost teeth.
Breathe in.

6 years old
A brief tug from my grandpa.
A popsicle and
A quarter from the tooth fairy:
Reward replaced anxiety.
Breathe out.

14 years old
Four teeth pulled for braces:
Sitting in a reclining chair at a dental school.
Dental student sweated, grumbled, tugged.
Panic in his eyes.
Did he know what he was doing?
Breathe in.

20 years old
Four impacted wisdom teeth:
Chipped and chiseled and broken,
Pulled out piece by piece.
Sitting in a  dental chair with tubes in my mouth.
Family dentist sweated, needed a break.
I went home but. .. 
Still bleeding 3 days later.
Gums packed and re-packed.
Breathe out.

73 years old.
A tooth worn out and broken.
Memories of past extractions
Heighten anxieties,
Emotions tumbling out.
Tooth is worn out. . .I’m worn out.
Age and anxiety, chipping away at me piece by piece:
Tonsils, gall bladder, ovaries, appendix.
Soon a ninth tooth.
Breathe out.

Sitting in a dental chair,
Blood pressure is too high.
The oral surgeon comes in with a smile
Dismissing my concerns with 
“That was 50 years ago!”
“How about some laughing gas?”
I can use a smile, a laugh, a buzz.
“Take deep breaths.  
Breathe in. 
Breathe out.”

Reward replaces anxiety.



Between Two Worlds

Most of my life, I've considered it fortunate that I was just ahead of the Baby-boom. Generally, the Baby-boomers were born between 1946 and 1964 after the fathers returned from World War II. It was a huge population explosion that has reverberated through American society.

This blog will be part history, part memories, part reflections of a retired teacher, but active "Senior". I have always felt like I straddled two generations forming a bridge. Sometimes I think like a baby-boomer, but sometimes I'm locked into my parents' Depression era thinking. I'm a dichotomy of two eras. But, I'm always ready to try something new---so here I am dipping my toes in the water of Blogworld.