Tears

 “A New Day is Dawning”----

But I only see clouds,

Tears falling like rain:

Mourning.

The tears of years of good-byes

The rips, the tears in my heart

So many years of worrying:

Will he survive

the fall?

the surgery?

the chemo?

Tears in my eyes, 

Tears in my heart

I thought those years of tears and tears

Would cushion my fall

When he let go.

The fall wasn’t parachuting

 to an easy landing

but a plunge into widowhood.

He’s been gone for nine months

Shouldn’t I have created a new life by now?

Looking for light in the Mourning:

A New Day Dawning